like I'm totally invisible

Hi, it's me again. I want to tell you something that has been bugging me since I went to middle school.

I know, I'm not this "Drama Queen" or the "Queen Bee" or in Indonesia they call it "Eksis" or "Gaul". Yeah, I'm not that kind of person. I can say, I'm just a geek, a normal girl, a lonely, friendless kid. I may have so many friends around the city. But, I don't think I have as you call it BFF. I used to have them when I'm in my Elementary School. But it all changed since I went to middle school. All of my friends have changed. Like it's really easy for them to fit in and making new friends. And it's not easy for me. I rarely hang out with my friends. They had their own plans, or they say they can't make it to get away from me. I am friendless, that is what I feel and it's true. Everytime I'm online chatting, nobody said "Hello" or "Hi" to me. Nobody. Not even one person. I have to say that to them. But most of them just ignored me. Like I'm totally invisible. That happens everytime. I want to say that it's not a good feeling. To be ditched, or ignored. There are so many people in this world. But most of the people doesn't really know I existed in this cruel, mean world.

That's it. I actually don't want to share this feeling to anybody. But I can't refuse my feeling. I need to tell someone. But, I don't think anyone really cares about me or my feeling. So I decided to write it in my blog.

Thank you for reading this un-important post.